Wednesday 29 June 2016

John wrote:
Perhaps i'm not understanding you rightly, but let me ask: can we, i mean you and me, cooperate if at the same time we are fighting one each other? ... Wouldn't be this a mere exchange of particular interests and not a real cooperation? ... I question that they cooperate at all, which would mean that they would have a whole view of the world and its conflicts (themselves as part of it also) without any bias ... Is that happening?
Hi John...
thanks for the dialogue. Yes I agree here . On the practical side taken separately the do cooperate unwillingly but they see that they must do that to succeed even though they fight too.., there is a sort of collaboration yet of course it is based on mutual greed so personal interest only so fight too but at some level they is collaboration, when at the people level there is no collaboration at all, but a forced working together because we put "me" first and me business is not to collaborate ...I mean here that the leaders are a sort of united group and the people of earth are not...yet some are part of groups of common interest but not in sectors of activity where they have some power at all about what is called economy, so are powerless..
for me it is the disintegration of people's togetherness within oneself so with others which has allowed mad insane leaders to be....And of course in any process of elimination as this is what takes places within the leaders too some are eliminating in a more efficient way than others so we have a one main group now in power...because they do actively cooperate somehow yet too of course are fighting as well ...all this can collapse at any time but with what we are now it only will be to recreate the same sort of society...
but all this is superficial of course..my view so far.
John wrote:
Daniel Paul. wrote:
the totalitarianism of the analytical process on the brain is the problem,
I told you that your words are always inspiring to me ... Totally agree with you, but we don't see this at all ... One could spend the whole life going deep into this single phrase and its deep meaning.
Yes I can remain analytical only, by I I mean anyone.I will develop that more down below.
John wrote:
That's my view also about the myth of Adam and Eve, and then the 'Dictator' made its appearance and we believed him ... But if that was so, how it was that a sane brain with all its faculties turned on became mesmerized with the orders of such a 'Dictator'?
I think , this is what I know by experience so valid for me at least, that we possibly get the dictator brain at birth, we keep it during "childhood" , then something takes place in order to turn on all our capacities, innate capacities...and this does not globally take place anymore...
we keep that childish brain only turned on...and the result is what we see...here it is necessary to be able to really have in a few second a global seeing of the entire world affairs...something I do ..
We have triggers and help in each one of us to go that way...this way is lost..Buddha re found it, k too and probably some unknown persons too...what we call suffering, what Buddha called dukkha is for me the process here to help that transformation to take place..without searching for it..and that is THE main problem, because mostly it is always thought which tries to do that...so nothing else but the childish brain is turned on, our full brain does not work...
So I do not think that a brain with all its faculties was mesmerised, it seems that those faculties do not turn themselves on any more because we do not do the right thing....thought prevents it, in my view thought does not do it on purpose at all, it is just too limited to do so..or differently put it is not its job to go into that, at this level for me it is now clear that its job at this level is to learn to live dukkah-suffering....because thought sees two elements where there is factually one only , gain not its fault as it is how it works as to analyse so to physically live thought vitally needs to separate One in many parts, it cannot analyse the global so it cuts it into conceptual pieces to do so...then it can analyse what it has memorised only...
thought has no capacity when it is about wholeness of life nor when it is about something it has not memorised..again my view...our turned off capacities have...I know this by experiences like some do..
Dialogue with Krishnamurti...


Krishnamurti:
We are concerned with the whole of life, not just a career, nine to five, how we live, what we do, what our thinking is, whether there is affection, care, love, compassion. All that is part of life. But we are so conditioned to this idea that we must work and create a structure of a society that demands that you work from morning until night. The speaker refuses to play into that rat race.
Krishnamurti:
, we want security which we think we have, which we haven't got. So will you go into this and find out if you can  free yourself from that 'rat race'and to find out one must exercise capacity, intelligence, not say, "I won't do it". You don't do it because you are intelligent, not because you are told, or you have read in some book, or some philosopher. I think it is very clear.
This is clear we have no security at all, I may be sure to have food yes but the division between myself and myself( me and not me) and so of myself and others is insecurity because the only relative security we will ever have is by willingly cooperating and sharing....the ongoing competition hiding in fact a process of elimination a direct side effect of the conceptual analysing prevents that at all level, for the super wealthy as well, as tomorrow or now the people may turn their anger towards them and their billions saved won't prevent them from a tragic death, so that in fact they are like the rest of us living insecurity...
The occidental world is loaded with fear of tomorrow when we have too much food all over the place apart from where some will die of starvation...that is insane..
Security or what we call security, is a matter of thought, our other capacities are not concerned with that...what takes place is that thought forecasts the future X, y Y or z, where it sees death : death denies to thought the right to seek for absolute continuity, but does not deny the right to seek for relative continuity....if I deny death as a fact which we all do apart from exceptions, "I", so, can seek for absolute security which is non existent = suffering...suffering simply says: this is not allowed, that is all...suffering is a good friend...
Relative security is to be found only in cooperation and equal sharing, never in the eliminating process called competition..we all refuse that apart from exceptions...this is where this world will have to go....or not, as we still can collectively accept the rat race...out of ignorance so insanity..as this prevents all our capacities to flourish ....
this is what we are up to ,seeking for the absolute where there is only the relative...so whatever amount of wealth stolen to the group we have, what takes place is a feeling of insecurity because I look for some absolute which is a dream, false, non existent...
The leaders are putting a lot of emphasis on that elimination, called competition to hide itself better, because they need that to steal us with our consent to be stolen in exchange for whatever...it creates total division between people, then stealing is a piece of cake..in the meantime the leaders cooperate up to what is possible to do within the limits of their own greed and violence...

to be con.tinued
Hello

Suffering, is a word , meant to be a representation of something non practical..
Any practical word means something precise to anyone, a chair we all see what it is.

We all have the same interpretation of "chair".

When it comes to non practical so visual fields, it gets more complex...

What do I mean by suffering here, mental suffering ?...it would be close enough to the word dukkha from the Buddhist times, yet you'll see right away that I am not at all a specialist of Buddhism and far from it.

Suffering for me contains all this and more: discontentment, sorrow, pain, frustration,fear, anxiety, terror, sadness, depression, etc etc so suffering is for me a signal saying that something is wrong.

Whatever the root of it is does not matter at first.

I speak of suffering as a signal that we usually hate and so we try to get rid of it, somehow like by trying to ignore it, get used to it, tame it, face it, explain it ,cover it etc etc

Can I get rid of what I don't know just by saying words ??

This is what we-I usually do....

This signal as an origin. What do I do with that when I do not know about mental suffering being a signal  so about its origin?

Run away is what I do..

All of us probably had such dreams where you keep trying to run away from something, but one is too slow and whatever we run away from is always behind our back...then it becomes a nightmare and usually I wake up in terror, sweating, shivering, petrified etc.

My own experience says that this is what we try to do with suffering, suffering being unknown as to its roots of course...

Usually many years later, life says : next! so better luck next time if there is such thing which I do not know about. This problem is not solved. Especially that now we are sure that this is part of life....that's the way it is.For myself I say no, this is not what life is meant to be....

Here we go into subject that is avoided by all means, which I understand of course, who would be fool enough to be interested in such topic, one must be mad to do that!!

I am just realising that this weird tittle I admit it,  kundalini, bliss ,suffering , life,  is quite in disorder and instead a logical order would have been , life, suffering, bliss ,kundalini...the kundalini being even optional in fact, it is only one of so many aspect of what may take place when life, suffering , bliss had been realised..

For me if I remove suffering there is no bliss and more...not that I have to suffer, or seek for that at all, but when it is there and I do not get what it is, there is no ..next, no bliss etc..

because as I have seen it suffering or rather the principle which hides behind this far too simple word which between us says far too little, is a catalyst  as well as it is a symptom, a signal...

this is one of those many processes we have and are ignoring to be so...

Well my mood is not that much into writing..in a few days I'll go away for 2 or 3 weeks...

The this process which his a signal and a catalyst will be for some time the main subject here...

Enjoy the day...

cheers..

Tuesday 28 June 2016

Good morning...

it happens that in the title appears the word bliss and the word suffering....then life.

It looks  like a random choice. Poor one !

Chronologically, my reason to write anything starts with suffering and not at all with this moment called kundalini, not this full day in total weird bliss, yet privately in real chat with some people, I would evoke those moments when I had the feeling that it was good to do so. This is how I met or heard about some other and their own stories , true stories on that wavelength..

Such sharing opens up possibilities in ways that even if I had lived the "impossible" for me out of the blue, make some experiences told by others widening by a lot an unknown field where everything can be a possibility, of course not everything in terms of doing even worse that what we actually are doing...or in terms like of not dying, so not in practical terms but in terms of anything which is not that...

It seems that we as a species are totally and absolutely out of the right tack, out track.

This is why if anyone has something to share on that wavelength I will be deeply interested to read about such facts...

Why is there suffering?
What is that ?
Life as a human is suffering? competition? war? business? conflict? pyramidal society, where each lair squeezes and crushes  the one below ? etc .

What I know by experiment is this: one day for some reasons, I did nothing about such suffering..I realised now that it happens that I was good at dealing with that from quite young, and I feel now that this so called kundalini and the bliss and more were side effects of properly living suffering...and what comes after that as side effects.

So I did nothing, what exactly does it mean?

Years of discontentment,  brought me to the point where I just renounced to keep fighting, to keep resisting whatever would take place and so "I" was defeated so all what was there was suffering....and this is exactly where the unexpected started to take place by itself as it wishes to...

The first event to take place was a total relief from pain-sorrow so there was  a state of "Goodness"....of feeling lighter, light.

There was this presence of energy within, not the big huge energy felt when the kundalini was taking place, but it was the same type,so had the same taste yet at a lesser scale...

The days which follow up to now some 8 years later, the kundalini and + was 40 years ish ago, have brought back a life because in fact i was self destroying myself because of this inability to live  sorrow-suffering as it shall be.

I leave it here for today.


Monday 27 June 2016

Hello again, if there is anyone reading and willing to ask details or more questions about post 1 and 2, feel free to do so.

I did not extend quite purposely the impossible descriptive of such moments but do not mind to go into it, or hear from others having been there , out of the blue I guess.

thanks.
Dan:  this seems a particularly 'grim' assessment of our situation: the brain caught in a process of constantly seeking new 'experience'(sensations) from a "dead centre" without a seeming ending. Much like an addiction, but not to any object, but to the process itself...Is this the description of the (overworked) 'analyser' that you often mentions?:


Hello Dan, I saw this a good while ago and I just come back to it now...

To answer my ways this yes it is some  of it indeed. It is not easy to go into that by all means, because there are many angles to go into that and most won't bring anything at all but more blah blah so not only will be useless but will bring more problems, well if it is at all possible :-))...saying that for myself....

I agree with you when you bring this "addiction to the process itself"...agreed with the grim assessment too..

I had this vision ( involuntary as usual of course)  of this analyser-analysing program which took the symbolic form of a now rusty square iron machine, equipped with an infinite number of fishing rods and this machine does one main thing: it constantly keep trying to catch anything with its hook...

it is mechanical, automatic, and....random !! desire or the will to gain personal "goodies" is the main incentive of this machine..when I remove such an incentive what takes place ? Self pride and self adorations are incentives too, desire is at the root and self pride at the end...all this makes though function...and after tons of causes and effect reactions it ends up in our world, to be seen for ALL what it is an not from a specific angle.

but as we feel it, sense it or see it, it has a down side...I say it with no proof but I know it for myself that this is meant to take place....we just  have lost touch with that and so many other things...our machines and complex calculation make us think that we are progressing( true about those aspects)  when we are globally declining ....in very damaging ways....so I say but most do not say so.

etc of course, this is the analyser program which is  used to write here too...

this bring  this questions: where am I ( are we) speaking from ? facts? experiences? imagination? hope? fear? lies? etc etc

there is this machine used here by "me" to write and the background it refers to ...

Usually the machine and its memory component is the background from which I speak, write, think, evaluates, kill, steal  etc etc it is both sort of the analyser and the analysed , the machine and what it does is both...

this is fine to avoid falling from the cliffs, because there is a separation, "me" is not the cliff nor the quick sand, not the deadly pond , not the fire etc ,..this allows some analysing of the situation to take place, the proper analysing sees that and adjust its walk to avoid the falling....

me and the environment are two elements..this is vital to move and more ...is it where this "me" takes place ??

again the memory can be facts or not, the past ones as well as what the future must be...if it speaks from facts the re-transcription of it will loose some of it in the possible writing and some of it in the reception of the message...as well as some of it in my own special ways to read it...

etc... so back to the grim assessment, the analyser..the analyser is globally and permanently in a state of deep frustration and discontentment at the best...it thinks that this is life, it is a conclusion it has, it is based on....nothing at all !!

it may not be aware of it anymore ,as now it sees all that as an inevitable fact of being alive, part of life, helped by a very old propaganda from the thieves leading us with our acceptance, whether through imaginary religion or whatever ..

If so, then what I write here is a total nonsense to anyone in that case ....apparently, not to forget what now has become not conscious for what is left of our brain, and this is forgotten unless one has some time with that , somehow.

If not so, then we ( global)  may keep some exchange on that.

The analyser is frustrated, in fear and much more, full of hopes but that is for tomorrow not an actuality, and out of a spark of intelligence ( global always) it says : *this is not life* !! "it" knows it, deeply , it is sure of it !! it does not listen to anyone!! etc it does not know the root of that, of course at first it is not seeking for that at all as it attempts to run....bit by bit all pain is increasing..wrong way sense  the still totally lost  analyser..by saying this is not life, thought is questioning life as it knows it itself !!! that a big huge move...

then, another spark of global intelligence is there so apparently out of the blue but it is not as such, under the pressure of its life that it now does not accept as such so starts questioning life itself, whatever the consequences will be it now stops searching let's say for 10 seconds, meaning it stops working as a rotten machine....this stop, if real and deep even for a second will be enough to allow some other capacity to start functioning again , AS THEY WISH, according to their own "program" , John wrote something about that in another thread..this I know as a factual experiments.

So what takes place here is: I need as   I want to solve this frustration, and much worse...I do not accept at all this has being what a human life is...the analyser is still involved at this stage..

this is clear..one is clear with oneself...."I" does not have the answer but the firm aim is there...whatever the consequences are...

And here the analyser may , somehow, reach its own limits, and seeing it it will accept to stop analysing...

Without all suffering for me this will never take place...

Suffering is not suffering, this is only an analytical false interpretation, it is a teacher........!!!! and contains an application which paralyses the work of the analyser under some conditions I try to evoke here..

But yes as you say the machine seeks news experiences all the time because it functions that way...because it is a machine, so is mechanical, automatic ,etc If I resist that like "I" resist to most things I rejected , bit by bit I am drowning ..deeper and deeper...

no bliss, no relief, no peace ...no weird energy, no other processes turned on etc

Good enough as a child and yet, this machine is not good enough as an adult...unless of course one accepts life as being a suffering, you said before that you don't if I am correct ?  and a bit of joy with sex ,alcohol, drugs and sun or whatever like money-power or whatever pleases one....what takes place when much older then ?? ..when death cannot be postponed indefinitely any more ?

when the continuity cannot be search for?? Life as so far lived totally collapses..



so the analyser will keep searching for new means to attempt to again run away ...from what its analytical process wants to discard , not to exist, even if many are facts...and rush to the other side where its choices are...

Best luck next time ,as John puts it sometimes ;-)

All this brings what I am trying to say which is all this considered, "I" am now reaching the moment where I may, at last, and this "at last" already contains relief in some sort of already goodness,so  the moment where I may  be in the position, having tried all tricks known to me, to stop all search because I see in another spark of global intelligence that all what I have done is "bullshit" , useless, stupid, nonsensical  etc

my misery, **whatever it is**,  is there and I am my misery , it is one and single element...not two like  the analyser which divides as a principle of its functioning sees...

back to k, the analyser is the analysed... but when I analyse the cliff and the possible fall, the analyser is not the analysed...

this is why such problem is never solved analytically because it, the analyser, thought, me , oneself, myself  etc... sees two where there is one.... in most when not in all mental fields there is always one....the analytical division here must never take place and Mother Nature indirectly tells us this by  using means to say this is wrong ,but we call it pain and analytically reject it, we reject this only help we will ever have is my view...



again analysing is vital to physically live...it is a deadly killer when it is not about that...

On this path or route or way or whatever, I start seeing that it possibly had never been about survival as a root..the root is about a proper functioning of "everything" ..the analytical process included...

the analyser alone cannot see that....

heaven helps those who help themselves....seems quite a fact then...but this if taken as a guaranty to take place will , of course , never take place....so it never can be "used"....

there is no room for the analyser in many aspects of being alive....

as usual etc....

as , as you know we could go on for days....

cheers...

Saturday 25 June 2016


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 In such moments  of bliss , of grace, of absolute contentment etc when all the brain, or at least more than we know , is turned on, the analytical system does not take the lead any more...so division is over as the leader of our lives...

elimination so competition so business so war is over like politics etc etc etc....the time this is on..or even when is is off afterwards , such moments totally out of reach of the analyser can, if powerful enough, if deep enough , leave a definite imprint into the analytical process which is then changing the way it was used to go...

our other processes will influence the ways of the analyser up to their own limits

Our brain is directly war and killing...and in my view k for krishnamurti , is very wrong to say that this is because of our global past and so called violent ancestors, as well as because our own personal past, the old  brain etc etc ...it short , experience wise it really seems to be that we are insane good a making machines, good is a self evaluation of course,  because our brain is malfunctioning due to the turning off of some capacities due to the dictatorial functioning of one program, the analytical one this prevents all others to work...I do not dismiss k's global work at all.

 this analytical program had been loaded from scratch with what we call suffering, but it is not suffering at all , it is a signal and a catalyst which has the property to hurt if we attempt anything against it which we do all the time..left alone this signal does not become painful , never.....it is a precious tool and must be left alone...then it works as meant to be according to something I do not understand but it has its own ways to do so...but we have become so short sighted that all this is not understood at all but we only attempt to escape....major mistake one more time..

Why when supposedly travelling back to our alleged past , why ONLY stop at the episode where our alleged ancestors would eventually have been violent only ? why ? it does not make any logical sense to me..why not go back to the very Origin..would that very origin have no influence at all then...???

this energy which is there, peaceful , deep , non hierarchical, give no value etc as beyond description etc  etc etc , may be this Original energy, it may, or at least it is linked to it, so that the Origin is present all the time ...it is this energy which sustains the entire physical fields ....our problem is just a malfunction....which is indicated to us but we call that suffering so the analyser says : go away you !! and never ever inquires the proper way into that...

between us this gets on my nerves as it is a very limited use of even a thorough good old common logic..

We go that insane way because many functions of us are now turned off, this is my experience like the one of some....the only one process now working being the analytical process, this is THIS which is responsible for our insanity...the past for me has nothing at all to do with that...AS THE ROOT PROBLEM.

But the thing is the leaders, sorry the thieves, to lead the flock to accept everything including to go to war and be killed for the leaders amusements and kill people for no reasons, needs us to firmly believe that there is no alternative....

well that's enough for now.


Cheers, I mean it.

Thursday 23 June 2016

Hello...for some reasons difficult to convey, I see a clear factual link out of involuntary experiments  between those "moments" superficially told , and suffering-frustration-discontentment-fear,sorrow etc....nothing new as such of course here....what Mr Buddha mentioned a good wile ago now , using the word dukkha , is too on that sort of wavelength ..


There is no attempt to copy or paraphrase anyone here, it is just to acknowledge that if I am not pulling your leg, which can be the case, I say that it is not but how would you know? , if so, it is not about any discovery as such at all, but about my own re discovery about that for myself....I must say that it took place when not searching of course, as you probably know that for yourself too...some events always take place when not searching...they are unpredictable,  not "catchable",  etc.

It is a tough subject to bring because there are so many things to go into but that, especially today with all the toys we are given like this computer I use and much more.

Such subject can appeal out of interest, and yet eventually only, to some people very sensitive about their own life and feeling that something is totally wrong, yet not being able to define it more.

The usual common approach of such subject is : run away !! and there are plenty ways to try to run away, any entertainment, religion, sport, work, possessions, money, sex , and whatever else ad libitum.

Before to go into it, I need to make up my own mind about some approach of it...as I am still hesitating between a chronological one or a no chronological one.

that will be for tomorrow so.

Cheers. 

Monday 20 June 2016

Question;  But even for this hectic 'apprentice' of politics it's quite clear that under the very mediatic 'persona' ...there's nothing much left alive - just a constantly updated and optimised greed. Now, evolution -wise, this is the end of the line ( can't do better than him !) From where the absolute necessity for awakening and developing some alternative skills, otherwise we can see how it all ends
So possibly this would be the trigger for the birth of a 'new' brain, co-existing with the other but with a very different area of competency- no 'Smart Ape' messing up with our inner human life. So, this would really amount to a major 'qualitative mutation' The material support is the very same brain, except that it is being 'soft-wired' differently
Hello Jean, for me this new brain is there and had already been working in some past....still is partially for some , no proof here, for myself I know it somehow..
As to our past from the very beginning, this is totally unknown, there is not one single trace to say that where we come from ....our birth may have been "decided" from the beginning of all things, this is totally unknown to us...
As to Darwin its main work was to prove that we are violent because some animal's are violent and that so we just behave like that because there is no alternative...free will disappear entirely, man has no choice but to do what it does best which is not machines but killing and all of it..
if this is true then we are doomed for good.
then why this presence which is there in moments where the brain works differently and that all other capacities are turned on, why is it at peace, absolutely fulfilling, bringing total contentment.....?
because it is not the analytical process leading the brain in such moments...so our deep nature is not at all to be greedy and all of it, not at all....
The huge problem I have with k for example, k for krishnamurti,  is that when reading him, one may think that it is the usual analytical brain who is going to watch, look etc.....for me absolutely not..it can't and never will do such thing.....
effectively this tiny (around 5%) but vital part of the brain has no other alternative but to do what it does.....my experiences say: it was not meant to function that way on its own, not at all...
for me we still are functioning with our child brain , which never fully bloomed and far from it , we can go into a childcare centre and see what takes place, this is our world in miniature ...!!! the fight for power has already started...if surrounded by intelligent adults, all will be fine, but there are no mental adults around but just old children, apart from exceptions of course but too few so far!! ...from nice and friendly up to neurotically mad persons..some are very good at hiding that under a very charming attitude for the naive..those are the narcissistic perverts, today leading the world, can be charming for the flock and real evil deep down..
animals and plants and so on are under the control of Mother Nature, we are totally incapable to analytically understand the depth of it as well as the depth of all what is alive in terms of global interaction . By interaction what the thinker understand is profit only...
because it, the analyser, me, etc does not know that it is a calculator and that it must be used in some specific fields only...desires and self rewarding and pride are some elements of its program out of many to make it work, and they lead to a disaster as well as to be able to make engines and machines and so what?? what is the point to have machine when life is conflict ,fear, nonsense suffering etc ?? oh yes, it gives me leisures for escaping..but it does not work....as if so the financial elites leading the flock would be the bestest wise men-women, when they are evil...because they suffer as us and the more you find es capes the more you suffer whether consciously and in all cases unconsciously ...then others pay for that !!
so now we are facing the need to know about its program....which by properly living sorrow-suffering revealed itself for me step by step, then you see yourself for what you are .without searching for it...The events decide, Mother Nature decides, you don't !!! that is the thing I know.all what I say here I never have searched for...nor have I found it in k, yet it is when thoroughly searching for after personal experimentation...
I stop trusting k words as such long ago because it was leading nowhere or rather was leading to a cul de sac....unless you get the point that when talking he is recalling the moments of his life when the analytical process is not leading, even recalling from one minute ago but when such moment takes place there is nothing to say so it can be vaguely told by analytically recalling them.....and this is not clear at all in my view in his entire work, it is even a danger to find oneself intricately caught in a huge catch 22 without knowing it...
because his word are somehow "beautiful" , appealing, mesmerising etc etc..of course they can be as if they really do come from times when the other functions are working it sure will be...
Mr B, well what is left of his words as he wrote nothing, is much more clearer on that specific point...with his four noble truth....
the starting point is dukkha's effect like sorrow, suffering, frustration, hatred, greed, discontentment etc etc etc
both are in the same wavelength ...so are some others, but there is too a great danger in k's words....and in anyone words because it is "only" a description and not an actual doing...
and apart from acting in time of severe crisis I do not see the analyser be destitute from its leading position....
the analyser can try to play that but it would be foolish and dangerous,...
so bye bye the ape and all that....I start from where I am...what I am...and as long as it is analytical it will lead nowhere else..is what I know by experience....it is of course incomplete, as when it is about something which may have no end, it always will be..

Sunday 19 June 2016

Good morning,

Those two special moments of my own life have left something indeed. Right after the so called kundalini and this full day in some sort of other dimension, I said to myself : " if this exist and it does , then everything is possible, including what I can't imagine of course".

Of course everything is possible not in terms or according to our thought, like more machines, more "toys", etc but really what was meant is that the Nature of life, whatever it entirely is, this nature if capable to produce such blissful state to a human mind may be infinite or so, and of course it means that it is loaded with some sort of blessed goodness ,where the brain mind has stopped searching for better, out of.....the suffering of frustration, of cravings, of fear, etc etc.....ad libitum !....when we are "told" that fight and so called competition is our deep nature, what I have like some, lived, says the exact opposite.

So on one hand are some very special moments, and on the other hand is the usual life in conflicts, fights, war, stealing, destruction, torture, pollution, nonsense, machines some and some are good and helpful some give Hiroshima and all mass killing etc etc  and on the personal side a craving for ideal desires, ideal goodness searched for in matters ,  possession, and a definite craving for absolute security which is so denied by our fights, and which leads to frustration, discontentment, suffering, suicide, etc etc and a few moments called joy, the joy to reach a goal which immediately gives birth to another set of cravings and fears...in short our world with two columns one for the - and one for the +, columns which will differ according to opinions of course.

Personally I knew after such time in bliss that first of all, it is a fact . It has not radically changed life as a "thinker" , yet it has a bit if not more but not in the obvious. On one hand it has brought very negatives effects, like when you live total peace, bliss, contentment, ordinary life is not a peace of cake at all, but it has brought too a tiny light which seems there and is a helper in moments of intense suffering which gradually became my cup of tea for many years. The bliss which was there is one thing, the vital understanding of myself and all its problems is a entirely different matter and at the tie I was not aware of this aspects in my own life . When I talk about understanding here it is not about some intellectual as we know it understanding and here I must now introduce this fact for me but idea for another one unless he or she has lived the same moments, neither good nor bad fut factually,

hello !! which fact ??? the fact that some other process(es) of our brain mind had turned on itself (themselves) when "it" took place by itself

The normal thought cannot go into that This will be developed later on

To be continued so..........
Hello ,

From kundalini to bliss all-right one can get it somehow of course, but then what has suffering to do with that?

"Nothing I hope" would be a common desire I guess.

Well I leave it on a shelve and we will see, but just to let you know for me suffering, mental suffering under any form whatever its real origin is is of course a signal, a symptom indicating that something is wrong, but for me as I see it now it has a function that I have experienced for myself like some have too. And it may be entirely related to thought itself, whether as such whether about its functioning itself..

So some experiences like the ones I superficially, by need to make it first short enough, mentioned are not uncommon, nor are they common.
I have met because from time to time like here I say it,  some persons having had the quite exact same type of "kundalini" or more, in the detail  not mentioned here as it is difficult  to do so with words, that, the unknown language part included as well , some would be slightly different, but the process itself like how it comes into being and all that is common to most, for some it did not reach the centre of the head, whatever took place, I say that because I am no specialist of it, I just tell what I got from it, I feel that it must be said, especially more in those mad insane times we live, which is our common creation.

But for today that is enough, I have things to do outside, I will develop that soon...I kind of know where I am going to from there, the writing just need to be seen in the brain mind first of all, so it is the moment which decides itself.....then it is a matter of transcription...

enjoy your day ..lazy day here, at the end of the day..

Wednesday 15 June 2016

Hello again....

then some one year later, something else, not foreseen, not forecast, unpredictable , unexpected , took place..

Now as I understood it since, it was that again "I" had live something like it was about dullness, sadness, grey day, no hope, tired, dissatisfaction, discontentment, sort of suffering - sorrow, for once ,well one more time was just lived to its very end, there was no resistance somehow to that...

then this energy was right back, no spine energy climbing this time , but just the all shebang was there again, the connection with ??? was on again, all the senses were immediately amplified, all the sadness was wiped away, and instead a state of deep contentment was there, not the partial one of the lotto winner....absolute contentment and peace, both words are appropriate here..

Of course in such time the question of the meaning of life was not asked, not that it was found or not, but such question only arises from a suffering brain mind as one of its attempt to get rid of its nonsensical life, so its suffering life ...which is something rare people would admit as being a fact because the fear to totally drown into it is there, yet the only known thing in such moment is that I do not know what can take place.

All this happened in a town of no interest at all, a sort of brand new quick rebuilt town with no character, as it was destroyed during world war two by the so called allies of the French people, and as my father said at the time : with such allies you do not need enemies.

Anyway, this bliss was there and my best friend at the time who was with me at the bus stop, immediately felt it somehow too, and gently asked me if he could stay with me, which he did....

Most of what took place as events this day are not recorded, I know that as this took place at around 9 in the morning and it is only at 5 ish in the afternoon that I went out of that state...what I remember does not fill the gap at all....

I remember that many children in town were attracted by us, and instinctively would come towards us, but the parents would not allow it, at some stage we had a drink , like lemonade in a pub, and for some time I was just staring at the glass as it was felt as deeply and amazingly "powerful", but everything was as such indeed...in such state of the mind there is no value given, ALL IS AT THE SAME LEVEL, as part of "it"....so of course no hierarchy, no rejection even of the thing you usually find most horrible or ugly, meaning that one goes all the way along with it..

It is entirely different than thought, it contains no fear, no sorrow etc..too vast to be described...

Back to thinking I would say that it is a benediction, but even that does not fit....no word does because "it" does not need words...nor to be stated as this or that...

I guess many thing took place and at some stage I found myself sitting on a bench with a tramp near by me when this exact thought came to me: I hope this is going to last !!

It immediately ended...and to such extend this did not come back to such extend since, that was some 43 years ago....

but this will be for next time, all this is just a start....

One thing what is not normal as we know it, I just had lived what thought would call the most extraordinary moment of a lifetime, yet when it took place all seemed just "normal" and more than fine of course,  and when "it " was gone, there was not a shred of  disappointment that it was gone.When thought lives such moment and it is gone, it cry upon itself, it is disorientated, it is sad, in pain eventually  etc etc

but here none of that was there..."we" must develop all that indeed !!


Monday 13 June 2016

Hello...to myself so far and maybe for more time which is fine.

Bear in mind that English is not my first language.

Some 43 years ish, from today the 14th of June 2016, , took place what is categorised by man  under the word kundalini, of course when it takes place it does not come to the brain mind that it is kundalini which is taking place, such word have no place when it is happening.

Still with my parents, in my bedroom at night time, another dream as often was on, and for once this dream seems to have gone to its full extend and brought with it a sort of strange well being, strange in the sense, not seen before, it was nothing  to worry about or whatever else, it was there that is all..

then from the very bottom of the spine, exactly like when coming to a physical orgasm , for a male is what I know, from this bottom a sot of movement took place and practically immediately it reaches the centre of the brain-skull and the impression at the time was the one to be connected, what was I connected to? I cannot answer that and to be honest it did not matter because the well being of the dream was amplified by a lot, that was sufficient and full contentment in itself so there was no point to be asking question at all...

I got up, opened the windows and shutters , and just sort of globally looked, all was tainted with some sort of never lived before amazing Goodness and "energy", impossible to describe all this was just absolutely and totally fulfilling...peace was there..not the peace of man after he destroyed everything, of course , that is death and ashes only.

contentment it was. Then all of a sudden, I heard a female voice right in the middle of the head, to know the effect is possible, just put on a pair of headphones and listen to any voice, not music, but turn off the stereo mode and listen in mono mode, there you are, you have exactly what took place.

On the spite of me all this what taking place by itself, I was not at any moment responsible for this nor for what follows. The voice I was hearing was using a language I did not know, yet I would understand what she was saying, it was not deep huge revelation about the future of man, but a simple and totally really concerned question about how was I feeling, she really meant to ask this question, she wanted to know how I  was , I was not surprised at all by all this at any stage at all, all this seemed natural, still seems so .

And in the spite of me I know how to answer in this telepathic talk, I just had to bring down this energy centred in the head down to the bottom of the spine and bring it up again right in the head and then i was able to answer her question, then it last for sometimes but I lost track of what was said, and she said do not try to have it back you will not succeed. Then all turned itself off, the total bliss and contentment went away, all the visual effect and all amplified sensations too, and impossibly there was not a second of disappointment that all this was gone...this is a vital piece I will come back to when the time to speak of that will be appropriate.

there would be more to it for myself as a matter of  involuntary experimentation but the nature of the "content" is impossible to be told as it was, total peace and contentment would perfectly fit here as well as the sense that ( here are the exact words I said to myself at the time) : if this is possible and it is as it just took place, then everything is possible !!!!

Not everything in man's desires terms of course, but apart from that yes all is possible.

I stop this short but enough version of this moment for now and next will be another experience on that wavelength a year ish after that first one....to be continued so....

Any wise question is welcome...I may or may not be able to answer but we'll see.

cheers..